Hear It on Sunday, Use It on Monday: Witness


Jingle Bells blares over the SuperSaver loudspeaker as I navigate my cart around piles of oranges and apples stacked high. Candy bins brim with red and green foil-wrapped chocolates and miniature candy canes. Poinsettas sit regally atop shelves. Glitzy garland shimmers and sways above the displays.
But I am angry.
Angry at the elderly lady who rolls her cart too slowly toward the dairy aisle. Angry at the produce guy who wishes me a happy holiday as he stacks dewy lettuce beneath the misters. Angry at the three packages of frozen spinach as they tumble from the freezer case and clatter to the linoleum floor.
I pick up the spinach and stack them on the top shelf. And then I close the freezer door and rest my forehead against the cold glass.
My heart feels the same. Like cold glass.
We’ve had some bad news this week, and without getting into all the details, let me just say that my first reaction has been anger.
I swear under my breath at the mini van braking furiously ahead of me on the snowy road. I push the empty laundry basket down the basement stairs and watch with my arms crossed over my chest as it smacks the wall with a thud. I want to hurl the Christmas tree out the front door and tear the garland off the mantel.
I feel nothing but anger for two days straight.
And then, one night as I stand at the sink with my hands in soapy water, I feel something else entirely.
Inexplicable joy.
There’s only one reason for this, and I know it instantly. No person, no thing could break through this anger and pain…with one exception. And I know right then, as hot water runs over dirty pans and dusk settles over the white pines, that he is at work. Only God can snuff out pitch black darkness in an instant with the light of joy and hope.
I am reminded of this kitchen sink moment when we read about John the Baptist on Sunday, especially when I hear these verses:
“There came a man who was sent from God; his name was John. He came as a witness to testify concerning that light, so that through him all men might believe. He himself was not the light; he came only as a witness to the light.” (John 1:6-8).
We tend to think of John the Baptist as special, unique, one of God’s chosen ones. And he was indeed an important contributor to Jesus’ story. But here’s the thing: John is no different from you or me. He’s not any more special, nor was his role any more important than ours. His purpose was simply to serve as a witness, a witness to a light that would dispel all darkness.
And just like John, you and I have been placed here to serve a purpose as well: to testify in our own special and unique ways about how God is present in our lives.

I know I tend to place myself in the center of my own story. I often make the grave mistake of assuming that I am the source of my own light – that I manufacture it through my own power and creativity. More often than not it takes something monumental for me to realize that God is at always at work in everything, and that he is the one and only true source of all joy and hope.
Last week I stood in front of a sink full of dirty supper dishes and felt the inexplicable flash of joy burn through despair. And in that instant I witnessed the power and glory of God.



This week I'll be linking up with communities at Jennifer's (God-Bumps on Wednesday), Ann's (Walk with Him Wednesday) and Laura's (Brag on God at Beholding Glory on Friday). Will you join me at their lovely communities to spotlight God's wondrous work?


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Tracey Soko  – (December 12, 2011 4:00 AM)  

I too had a trolley moment this morning - the old lady behind me in the queue kept bashing the back of my heels while we waited - it took all my strength to clench my teeth and smile sweetly!  How I wish that anger was not an easy emotion to crop up - I wish joy came more easily but perhaps it would't feel so joyful if it was easy come by?

kendal  – (December 12, 2011 5:02 AM)  

michelle - praying for you now.  and itell you, anger is usually my first reaction to bad news. and i mean anger at god. which is terrible, i know. but i struggle with that....

i wasn't going to link up this week, because my piece is more like see it out the window on sunday, use it for life, but i read yours and you mentioned light, so i linked.

NCSue –   – (December 12, 2011 6:11 AM)  

Good morning!


I’ve included your site on a page I’ve put
together devoted to hops, challenges, and memes for every day of the week! The
link to that page is under my header. http://acts17verse28.blogspot.com/

Mary Bonner  – (December 12, 2011 6:30 AM)  

That whole anger thing...sometimes I think I own the corner of that market!!  I can relate.  Great post my friend.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 6:36 AM)  

I totally get that, Kendal. I feel angry at God, too. I think he understands. And sometimes I tell myself that anger is still a form of communication with Him -- I guess that's better than icing Him out entirely.

Thank you for the prayers. And I am glad you linked up - I will be by your place later to read about the light (I need all I can get on that topic!).

Deborah Joy –   – (December 12, 2011 7:04 AM)  

Your post helped me to feel normal! It reminded me that's it's OK to feel angry. And having a chat with God about it is a Good Thing. He won't mind

The Watered Soul  – (December 12, 2011 7:06 AM)  

A refreshingly honest post and a great testament to how we witness God's transforming power in our daily lives. This is my first time to actual visit and link up with you but I've seen your button on other blogs I visit. Wishing you a joy-filled day. 

Jenifer Metzger  – (December 12, 2011 7:21 AM)  

Beautiful post!  Our circumstances may not change but we can still find JOY in CHRIST!

Lisa notes  – (December 12, 2011 7:22 AM)  

Ah, I love those kitchen-sink moments. Makes me want to go wash a sink full of dishes. Well, maybe not. ha.

I am thankful God can send us epiphanies--of joy!--as we go about our daily routines, not just when we're in official Quiet Time. Thanks for sharing your stories about you, because they're always ultimately about Him. Blessings, Michelle.

Jen Ferguson –   – (December 12, 2011 7:23 AM)  

Michelle, I am sorry about whatever has caused you so much pain.  If there is anything you would like the SDG girls to be praying for, will you shoot me an email?

I love your words about John the Baptist.  I love his no nonsense approach to doing God's work. I think it must be because He felt this joy every single day, even while eating locusts.

June Scott –   – (December 12, 2011 8:04 AM)  

Thank you, Michelle. Even in your dark moments, you are a beautiful witness for Him.

Sheila Seiler Lagrand  – (December 12, 2011 8:15 AM)  

Michelle, I'm sorry something has brought you such pain. 


And I'm so grateful for that joy that bubbled over for you as you washed dishes.

Jennifer@GDWJ  – (December 12, 2011 8:31 AM)  

I cannot even begin to describe how much this resonates with me, Michelle. If you pop over to my post, you'll see why. (A definite "God-Incidence.") Linking hearts with you right now, asking Jesus to chase away the shadows and brighten up every corner with joy, unspeakable joy.

(Praying, praying, praying for you...)

Connie@raise your eyes  – (December 12, 2011 8:54 AM)  

Oh I love how GOD does that! I think of Jonah getting mad at a town for not getting obliterated and then being enraged at a plant dying and GOD asks him, "Do you have good reason to be angry?" Jonah spits back, "I have good reason to be angry, even unto death!"

Oh how He loves His puny dust people. Praying for you here in the dust, sister.

jennifer –   – (December 12, 2011 10:00 AM)  

Anger is a natural reaction for me, too. I hate feeling angry, especially when I'm angry at silly things like the person driving too slow or too fast or the length of time my husband spends in the shower or etc. etc. 

I'm praying for you, Michelle, and I'm so thankful that God gave you joy in the midst of your bad news. Thank you, also, for continuing to witness to all of us.

mary kathryn –   – (December 12, 2011 10:45 AM)  

Michelle, you've stated it exactly. "Only God." This simple, astounding fact is the best (perhaps the only?) real proof to anyone, that God is real and active on earth. Only He could take my heart and make it anything but angry, bitter, defensive, sad. Only He could take the constant disasters in my life and transform them into beautiful testimony that helps others and are a joy to remember. Only God transforms. I'm so glad for your joy. May He bring you peace, in the bad news.

Fridaydreamer –   – (December 12, 2011 11:03 AM)  

So sorry your days have been touched by trouble--will be praying for you!  Let me just say, with the way I have always felt about doing dishes, I think an epiphany of joy WHILE DOING DISHES is a miracle of the highest order!!  I love that God reached down into your dishwater and flooded your heart with the light of joy!!  Blessings!

LisaP44 –   – (December 12, 2011 11:08 AM)  

Oh Michelle, I'm guilty of thinking that I am the source of my own strength, provision, joy and light.  It's when we really and acknowledge that Jesus is our Source that we can experience that true joy.

Many blessings,
Lisa
A Moment with God

JosephPote –   – (December 12, 2011 12:40 PM)  

What a beautiful post, Michelle!

I'm praying for you, about whatever news caused you such pain.

I am very thankful to you, for so eloquently sharing both the emotion of raw anger, and the burst of pure joy that comes only from Christ!

I like seeing His glory shine thru your words!  =^)

Lara Prachar –   – (December 12, 2011 12:53 PM)  

I've been praying like crazy Michelle. I'm angry too. Love you guys!

Hazel Irene Moon  – (December 12, 2011 1:06 PM)  

We are not happy when we receive bad news! - - Especially when it hits so close to home.  I am reminded of the scripture or is it a song?  The Joy of the Lord is my strength.  I can imagine the dissapointment and anger of Joseph when he realized that his bride to be was pregnate but the child was not his.  I am also reminded of the anger by King Herod when he heard that a new King had been born.  Everyone else was happy about it.  That only made him more furious!  I am so happy when the Holy Spirit shows up and calms us down.  Life happens and it is sometimes very very sad - - and other times full of joy.

rmoon2004 –   – (December 12, 2011 1:23 PM)  

I often get angry when my body does not act as it should due to getting older.  I think the Lord may get angry when he see's "his body" acting up not as they should."  I am reminded of the song we sang as children, "One door and only one and yet it's sides are two - - I'm on the INSIDE on which side are YOU?  Thank God for the Joy He gives!

Christina Klas  – (December 12, 2011 1:42 PM)  

Man. This post really hits the nail on the head - "I often make the grave mistake of assuming that I am the source of my own light" How often I fall into this trap!

it000016 –   – (December 12, 2011 2:01 PM)  

Amen, Michelle! May His light shine through us! May we, like John the Baptist, prepare hearts to accept Him.


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joan taylor –   – (December 12, 2011 2:16 PM)  

Beautiful Michelle.

Isn't wonderful to receive His joy in our darkest places.  Isn't amazing that His grace covers all things, and meets us right where we are.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:25 PM)  

Thank you, Joan. I see it as nothing short of a true miracle.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:26 PM)  

Amen right back to you, Laurie. Grateful for your comment today.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:26 PM)  

I'm glad at least I am not alone in that boat, Christina!

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:27 PM)  

I  have never heard that song, Hazel -- thank you for sharing it with me here.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:28 PM)  

Thank God for the work of the Holy Spirit, breathing peace into my troubled and anxious heart. And thanking you, too, Hazel, for always being such a light.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:28 PM)  

I know you have, Lara. And thank you.

I saw on FB that you have the stomach flu at your house - I hope it passes quickly!

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:29 PM)  

Thank you so much for your prayers, Joe - they are much appreciated and needed.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:29 PM)  

Amazing is the perfect word. I often say miraculous, too.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:30 PM)  

I'm glad I'm not alone in that self-absorbed thinking, Lisa. It's good to realize when it happens, but I bet there are so many more times when I don't even realize I am putting myself front and center instead of God himself.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:30 PM)  

Thank you for your prayers, and for making me smile today, Shaunie.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:31 PM)  

Thank you for your prayer for peace in spite of everything. So glad you stopped by today, MK, to offer these heartfelt words here.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:32 PM)  

Thank you SO much for your prayers, Jennifer. They help, they really do.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:32 PM)  

I love the story of Jonah because he's so darn real and flawed...just like the rest of us.

And thank you, Connie, for your prayers -- they are lifting me up out of this fear.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:34 PM)  

I read your post, Jennifer - thank you for that, dear sister. I hesitated to write this one of my own today. I thought, no one wants to read a story of pain and suffering less than 2 weeks before Christmas. But it was all I could write, if you know what I mean.

Thank you for prayers and love...it means so much to me.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:34 PM)  

Thank you, Sheila, thank you so much.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:34 PM)  

You are so sweet, June. Thank you for making me smile.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:36 PM)  

That's exactly it, Jennifer -- a no-nonsense approach. He doesn't beat around the bush, he just gets right to proclaiming the Good News about Jesus. Love that about John the Baptist.

And thank you for the offer of prayer in the SDG community. I will email you. I missed it for today...but this is a situation that I fear will be with us for quite some time, so I will email you before next week. Thank you.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:36 PM)  

Thank you, Lisa. It was an epiphany indeed.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:37 PM)  

Joy in all things, that's right. Thank you for putting that so succinctly, Jenifer!

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:37 PM)  

Thank you so much for stopping by -- I look forward to meeting you at your place soon!

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:39 PM)  

I truly believe that, Deborah. I believe that God wants to hear from us, even in our angry moments. Even if we are angry with him. After all, even that kind of communication is better than no communication at all. I've been known to ice out God, so I think even these angry conversations are more productive than that!

I'm so glad this story made you feel normal -- we are all in this together!

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:39 PM)  

Thank you, Mary. And thank you for the kind email. You are such a comfort.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 12, 2011 4:40 PM)  

Thanks for coming by Tracey - I loved your Hear It, Use It post this week!

Janmacy  – (December 12, 2011 4:46 PM)  

Priceless and precious!  Only HE can do that.  

Made me wonder if I was shining light today at work.  I need to work on that.  

Thanks so much for your brutal transparency.  We all need to know we can be honest and transparent.  

nance marie  – (December 12, 2011 6:37 PM)  

i was giggling about you thinking of throwing the tree out the front door...

Shelly Miller  – (December 12, 2011 7:08 PM)  

Okay, your pushing the laundry basket down the steps made me laugh out loud. My post today is so similar, we are in the same boat different water and reading this was like seeing a bit of myself. Laughing is good. Finding peace in the midst of disappointment is such a challenge but He is so faithful. 

Jean Wise  – (December 12, 2011 7:18 PM)  

I am so sorry you had at first such a bad week.  Your writing really conveys the intensity of your anger.  I was angry with you. But what wonderful news that God brought through that wall of madness and drenched you with HIs joy

Amanda Jones –   – (December 12, 2011 9:39 PM)  

I'm sorry to hear you were robbed of joy last week but blessed to hear your testimony of God's restorative power in that...  linking up from faithfulhomeschool.blogspot.com  Bless you this week!

Laura  – (December 12, 2011 10:08 PM)  

Thank you so much for your shout out Michelle! You are such a blessing!!!

Ro elliott –   – (December 13, 2011 7:39 AM)  

I love how God comes...just because He loves us...not us earning it...deserving it...but because He is Love...I had moment in a crowded store...all of a sudden I felt His very real presence...I was not praying...asking...seeking...He just came near...
Blessings to your week...may He continue to heal what was hurt...

amanda d  – (December 13, 2011 4:28 PM)  

Thankful God shows up in these real moments ...  in frustration and in joy 

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 13, 2011 6:11 PM)  

Amen, Amanda, Amen. Thanks for stopping by -- love you!

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 13, 2011 6:12 PM)  

Wow, what a cool spiritual moment, right in the chaos of a crowded store. If you write about that experience, you should like it up tomorrow at Jennifer's -- she does a community at www.gettingdownwithjesus.com.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 13, 2011 6:13 PM)  

The pleasure is all mine, Laura -- grateful to know you!

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 13, 2011 6:14 PM)  

Amanda, hello! I will be by to read your post at your place soon!

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 13, 2011 6:14 PM)  

Thank you so much for your encouragement and empathy, Jean. It's been a bad few days. But I am still feeling His light through it all.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 13, 2011 6:15 PM)  

Yeah, it was kind of a mini tantrum - not pretty!

I'm looking forward to reading your post, Shelly -- I am never disappointed at your place!

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 13, 2011 6:15 PM)  

Yup, I had the urge...but I didn't do it (my kids would have been traumatized).

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 13, 2011 6:16 PM)  

Yeah, it was kind of brutal transparency, wasn't it? But if I don't write honestly, I can't write at all, so I guess that's just the way I operate.

Supermom Toki –   – (December 13, 2011 8:07 PM)  

Michelle, I found you through my blogging friend Kristi from "Breathe...Shine...Love..."  I read your, "The Road to Faith" post and I just had to comment and follow.  You're an amazing writer and your faith shines through your words.   Thank you.

smoothstones –   – (December 13, 2011 11:37 PM)  

Oh, Michelle, this is beautiful. I think perhaps God allows our suffering so He can replace it with joy in the way--as you indicate--that only He can. I am sorry for all the things that hurt you but glad for your intimate knowledge of the Healer of these things. Pleased and proud to link up with you, today.

Laura Boggess  – (December 14, 2011 10:18 AM)  

I have been praying for you and your family, my friend.  So thankful He is there with you, that you feel Him. The God of all comfort came down. Love to you.

Jennifer@GDWJ  – (December 14, 2011 12:17 PM)  

I had the same struggle before clicking "PUBLISH." By the looks of things here in your comment box, you definitely made the right decision. Your post really resonates. ... Love you ... Still praying. 

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 14, 2011 8:20 PM)  

Thank you so much, Laura. Your comment brings so much comfort to me.

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 14, 2011 8:21 PM)  

Thank you so much, sweet Brandee. And I am praying for you, too. {saw your update on facebook}

Michelle DeRusha  – (December 14, 2011 8:24 PM)  

Oh my goodness, you are so kind. Thank you for lifting me up with your sweet words here today.

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